I'm sorry. For so long now I've forgotten to feel.

Anything I've written in here has been censored. Has been me cutting myself off from here.

I admit, I have another place I go. And no, if you don't know it exists you won't be able to. That's just the way it is.

When I started here I was completely open. When I let someone else see here I took out a few entries and hid them somewhere. They're lost now. I don't remember what they said and I don't remember where they are.

Things happen that way.

I'm going to start writing from the heart here again. Maybe not as often but I want to stop leaving blank spots and holes. I'll still leave out names (usually) but that's just my style.

I like leaving you to guess.

I was reading some of my older entries (I was inspired to do so when smoke-sky wrote me a note) and I used to write from inside, here. I used to be more of a person with a soul, rather then just...a.. shell.

I forgot to feel.

I'm going to make an honest attempt to get back to that place. Because I liked what I read. That was me.

I don't expect a welcome back. I don't expect anything.

I've learned time and again not to expect anything.

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